They say, “My gosh, she’s so small! You need to get her to eat!” …as if we haven’t tried.
I don’t know why they say it but maybe it’s because they didn’t know that you were born at 5lbs 15oz after a normal, healthy, 39 week pregnancy.
Maybe it is because they didn’t realize you were breastfed on demand for the first 6 months of your life, easily doubling your birth weight by the time you hit that half year mark, but still coming in around the 3-5 percentile with each weigh in.
Maybe they didn’t see us try every form of food introduction we could think of for the next 6 months, from baby led weaning stalks of broccoli, offering homemade carrot purees to spoon-feeding store bought jars of baby apple sauce.
Maybe they didn’t see you pulling away after just two bites and sobbing if we even attempted a third.
Maybe they didn’t notice the chair we bought that clamps onto the table so that lets you eat up with us, or the highchair to give you a bit more space, or the third that straps you onto a regular chair to pull right up by our sides.
Maybe they didn’t see us when we tried eating on the floor, or on the couch, or in your room, in the kitchen, on a bench, outside, in the car, at a restaurant or at home.
Maybe they didn’t see the heart shaped sandwiches, or the smily faced fruit.
Maybe they didn’t see the endless Google searches of, ‘how to help my toddler eat’, ‘toddler won’t eat’, ‘toddler hates food’.
Maybe they didn’t hear the late night conversations once you are in bed of, “what more can we do??”
Maybe they didn’t notice the tears that I try so hard to hold back after yet another failed meal… or the ones I let out when I am alone.
Maybe they didn’t hear the screeches of “No no no noooooo!!!!” when a snack is even suggested
Maybe they didn’t realize that the extra pounds I’ve gained have been from eating what you won’t, or the food that goes to waste because I just can’t eat it all.
Maybe they didn’t see me bookmarking toddler friendly recipes then trying every one I thought you might enjoy, just to have it thrown on the floor again… and again… and again.
Maybe they didn’t see the blender spin as another high calorie smoothie was attempted, or the stacks of Pedisure we’ve gone through to help you gain just a pound or two.
Maybe they didn’t hear us asking friends and family for advice.
Maybe they didn’t hear our cheers when you taste just one bite of something new.
Maybe they think we haven’t tried.
Believe me when I say… we have tried. We are trying. But I don’t need to tell you this because you have seen, you have heard, you have been there… you have tried too.
We will get there my sweet girl. We will keep trying and I know you will too, because as your Daddy always says, “We are a team.”
And hey, someone has to be the smallest on the team right?! 😉